this is by far the hardest thing I ever had to do. I want to tell you how sorry I am but I don't know how. I want to tell you that I loved you from the start. I wish things could of been different...i'm sorry of our ingnoranc because of it we choose to lose you.
Sometimes i feel as though i don't belong in your world. I don't have anything in common with your friends and at times i wonder if you see less of me because i don't For a while i try so hard..to make everything perfect. listen to jokes that i think is rude try to laugh when at sometimes i wanna frown. Im getting so tired of putting up this front... and act as if it doesnt affect me.
I want someone who calls me when ever he thinks of me, and shows me apprecation. Am I asking for to much or is he not giving me enough. Yes i tend to over react, and little hard headed at times..but if someone who understand you wouldn't he know what to do or what to say to not make you over react? If you say you love someone aren't you suppose to be attached? call them when you miss them..see them when they are not around. Or is my idea of love overrated? I don't want to be the type of girls that goes partying and clubbing with my girls and forget about my boyfriend. That kinda shit is what you do when you're single and unattached. I feel so beaten down and so helpless...the words that comes out of his mouth hurts me more then ever. I don't want to fall in the same hole that took me so hard to crawl out of.
im so afraid that if i give him the space, ill lose him.
Its killing me right now that i can't pick up the phone and call him.
